And it is nuts!! I received a huge box from UPS with all the meds, needles, syringes, alcohol swabs, etc. I can open up a drug store! I finally finished sorting it all out and making sure I received everything. I didn't get the BCP yet though...I have to wait until I get my period and just get it at my local CVS. I refrigerated what needed to be refrigerated..and the big bag of everything else is sitting in my living room. I guess I can put it in my closet. I also got a little bag of hershey kisses in the box. Can't wait to eat that all up. The picture above is all the stuff I got (except for the hershey kisses). The two big bags are filled with syringes and the small bags are the needles. And let me say....one of the packs of needles are huge! I mean the needle is huge! I'm a little nervous...I'm not gonna lie.
Vlad's going to have a field day sticking me with that because there is no way I can do it to myself. Oh..and one of those follistism pens shouldn't be there...OOPS...it's from the cycle that never happened. So....minus one follistism pen box.
I won't lie though...I'm also a little excited. I hope it's the beginning of something WONDERFUL!!!
I told my friends Donna and Patty today that I'm a little bitter about one of the male co-workers that just announced that his wife is pregnant again (this makes 3). She's due exactly 3 days after I was due had I not m/c. This sucks and is VERY depressing. I felt that I was being a little bitter to him. I don't want to be...but I am. Especially since his financial situation isn't the best and really shouldn't be bringing in another chid to this. But I hear he inherited money...but it can't possibly be much. And seriously by the way he lives life now...I wouldn't be surprised if it's all gone already. Well...not my problem..and seriously I need to stop dwelling on it. It's just hard. The last time I was pregnant and m/c another girl at work was due the exact same day as me. Needless to say...that's wasn't easy either.
I'll be alright...Promise...it's just gonna take some time.
Oh, and I got my CBC results today and my platelet count is 290 so it did go down because of the miscarriage (day of m/c 354)...but not that much. It is still in the normal range. Thank God!
4 comments:
Do not worry about feeling a little bitter. It is a perfectly normal reaction. Just know that one day, it will be your time, and no one can possibly be bitter of you! EVERYONE will be estatic when it is you announcing it! YOu deserve it the most out of everyone! :) Liz
I know, it's a little overwhelming when you see all of those meds. As for opening a drug store, after all the cycles I've done, it's ridiculous how much stuff I have! I don't think my refrigerator has been drug free in a year and a half!
Good luck! I promise you, the PIO needle, while daunting looking, isn't that bad!
Just want to say that you and your DH are in my thoughts and prayers! Hope this is the answer for you guys!
Andrea (TiredAn)
wow! you can open a drugstore of your own! i'm going to keep you and vlad in my prayers. )and don't feel bad about being a bit bitter-- raw human emotions aren't always pretty, but you have to feel and process them anyway. it's natural.)
lauren.
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